Times change and things change. Change is hard. After being denied the opportunity to take classes in person (rather than just online) at my current college, I have decided to take in-person classes at another local university. This is hard. Change is hard.
I would like to spend some time talking about music. Almost everyone I know has a type of music they like. Music, for me, is either a cacophony of tones that make no sense or it is precise and exact in tones that meld in my head to calm or excite.
Sometimes this can be just a single portion of a song, perhaps 5 seconds, but it is a sound or combination of sounds that is balanced and is wonderful to listen to. It is something that at times I crave desperately, and I will listen to portions of a song over and over many times to keep hearing those tones that I crave.
To others this can look strange but it is an example of how differently we can experience the world. It is very common that people ask me to listen to music the way they do. This ignores that we might have different wants or needs when we are listening to music. For example, to certain individuals the lyrics or entire song can be meaningful. To me, sounds are meaningful. The way a vocalist’s voice melds with an instrument, a tone an instrument makes in just a few seconds of the song are sometimes more meaningful to me in many different ways than the entire song.
I have to wonder if there are others that feel the same? Music is wonderful, but it is wonderful in a different sort of way for me than a typical individual.
I wonder how others might feel about this? Are there particular parts of songs you want to listen to over and over again just because you like the way that one particular part sounds? Do you listen to the whole song and then re-listen to it over and over again? How do our sensory needs differ I wonder?
I often repeat words to myself out loud. These words are variable like “monopoly,” “swim,” and “airport.” I was recently asked about this at a meeting. Basically, while I do enjoy going to the airport and other things because of the sounds, I also like hearing the sounds of specific words when I say them out loud.
I have been asked the reason behind this and I will try to explain. However, it is hard to do so in many ways. I hear myself speak differently at different times. I can hear tones in different words that sometimes are very interesting to me. However, if I hear another person say the same word, there is no interest.
Some tones are melodic and others have much dissonance to them. I may keep saying a sound or listening to a particular part of a song because it has a tone in it that I like to hear. I do wonder if it is my body telling me I need to hear this sound to help adjust some sensory issue my body is working out or if it just because I like it at that particular moment. I don’t know the answer to that, but I do know that sometimes when I say words I get more excited and at other moments I get more relaxed.
So, take a minute and think about it? Do some words just sound more interesting to you? Do some sounds seem to “roll of the tongue” as the saying goes? Think of how this might be magnified in someone with sensory differences. I personally love the way some of the words sound and enjoy saying them. It hurts no one and it calms me.
“Getting back into a routine” This is something I have heard a great deal lately. Is there a greater shift in our lives than in the autumn when returning to school and work after the summer break? I have a great deal of difficulty with change and for a person like me each little difference is massive. By now, most people are adjusted to the change, but for me it is still going on and it is still at its extreme.
Returning to school is exciting or anxiety producing for most people but for me it is a sensory barrage. Environments all change and each has new smells, lights, people and temperatures. Trees are louder in the wind. The heater smells very different from air conditioning. People wear different fabrics. The smallest change can be distracting or overwhelming.
I know that I will eventually settle in, but paper clips, staples, and everything else like that are all major players in the game for me at this time. They take a predominant role because I would rather focus on those than on the anxiety of change. I think that this is what happens every year – dealing with the anxiety of change. Right now I have, just like many of my readers probably have, many changes going on. I am starting new classes, new goals in therapy, changes in my routine and even changes in my living situation to a certain extent. All of this can seem overwhelming to me at times and then, as I said before, I need to get used to new sounds, new smells and new ways of dealing with those things.
The summer was great, but busy. Now it is time to get back into focus.
It has been a busy couple of months and I have neglected my blog a bit more than I intended to.
From February to July this year I was lucky enough to participate in a tech development contest organized by AT&T and NYU. The goal was to invite people to create new tech solutions for people with disabilities.
i was asked to provide feedback on each idea along with a diverse panel of people with and without disabilities. With me were three amazing advocates for accessability Xian Horn, Gus Chalkias, and Jason DaSilva. All of us have a different background and different challenges. we all brought our unique perspectives to the process.
Our role was to represent the end user and ask questions that might not occur to people without disabilities. hopefully this will lead to products that can help people become or remain independent. It was a wonderful experience that I was privileged enough with which to be involved.
Having said that, I am hoping that my readers check out the contest page and the wonderful videos about the exemplars so they can see what I have been up to. I hope to get back on a regular schedule now of posting regular blog entries and have some great ideas, so check back soon.
I recently wrote an op-ed piece for Wired.com about technology and people with disabilities. I’m sharing the link in case any one is interested:
Here is a video I was a part of to promote a contest to develop new and better tech for people with disabilities.
Check it out and I’ll post later about what new exciting tools are created.
Also take a minute to check out the videos produced with my fellow exemplars: