I often repeat words to myself out loud. These words are variable like “monopoly,” “swim,” and “airport.” I was recently asked about this at a meeting. Basically, while I do enjoy going to the airport and other things because of the sounds, I also like hearing the sounds of specific words when I say them out loud.
I have been asked the reason behind this and I will try to explain. However, it is hard to do so in many ways. I hear myself speak differently at different times. I can hear tones in different words that sometimes are very interesting to me. However, if I hear another person say the same word, there is no interest.
Some tones are melodic and others have much dissonance to them. I may keep saying a sound or listening to a particular part of a song because it has a tone in it that I like to hear. I do wonder if it is my body telling me I need to hear this sound to help adjust some sensory issue my body is working out or if it just because I like it at that particular moment. I don’t know the answer to that, but I do know that sometimes when I say words I get more excited and at other moments I get more relaxed.
So, take a minute and think about it? Do some words just sound more interesting to you? Do some sounds seem to “roll of the tongue” as the saying goes? Think of how this might be magnified in someone with sensory differences. I personally love the way some of the words sound and enjoy saying them. It hurts no one and it calms me.
“Getting back into a routine” This is something I have heard a great deal lately. Is there a greater shift in our lives than in the autumn when returning to school and work after the summer break? I have a great deal of difficulty with change and for a person like me each little difference is massive. By now, most people are adjusted to the change, but for me it is still going on and it is still at its extreme.
Returning to school is exciting or anxiety producing for most people but for me it is a sensory barrage. Environments all change and each has new smells, lights, people and temperatures. Trees are louder in the wind. The heater smells very different from air conditioning. People wear different fabrics. The smallest change can be distracting or overwhelming.
I know that I will eventually settle in, but paper clips, staples, and everything else like that are all major players in the game for me at this time. They take a predominant role because I would rather focus on those than on the anxiety of change. I think that this is what happens every year – dealing with the anxiety of change. Right now I have, just like many of my readers probably have, many changes going on. I am starting new classes, new goals in therapy, changes in my routine and even changes in my living situation to a certain extent. All of this can seem overwhelming to me at times and then, as I said before, I need to get used to new sounds, new smells and new ways of dealing with those things.
The summer was great, but busy. Now it is time to get back into focus.